Zinny's wit

 

 

If you try to keep your life for yourself, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for me, you will find true life"

 

why. am . i. getting. this. for . devotions twice. in. a. row.? whyyyy

 

 

 

I wonder through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

 

i think i just watched something that had potential to make me cry. : ) Wonderfalls is truly a great great great show. i now don't understand why shows like SATC have priority over these ones. What's with satc anyway? mr big is UGALLLALLLY, and well rich, and carrie bradshaw is not even hot, but i like SJP BUT wonderfalls is witty, clever poignant, and lovable.

 

So, i was just watching this episode with a wayward nun, and how this father (priest) tries to come after her. And somehow, the father through a series of events realises that he has a daughter before he'd ever known because he just left he woman he was with to become a priest. And. theyare now reunited by the talking figurines who talks to our heroine of the show. The scene where he meets hisdaughter ... is... just.

 

somehow, i feel that God. You are trying totalk to mesomewhere, somehow. ...... and...am i receiving the radar? what do you wantme to do? i think i am ready to do something crazy.

oooooh i have just fallen in love!

With cary grant, and and ah, gary cooper, james stewart and charlton heston, oh oh and who could miss out christopher plummer * * starry-eyed.

And of cos, the dresses of grace kelly, deborah kerr, katherine hepburn and julie andrews! * * double starry eyed * *

 

i have fallen in love with men in smart suits, and women in glorious dresses, and everything had style and taste

 

sigh they do make dresses and men differently then...

 

 

    

charmaine carr in the prettiest dress from the sound of music

 

    

cary grant and deborah kerr in dream wife

 

    

grace kelly! :) bing cosby... who sings well! hahaha

Today i read something, faith respects God and God respects Faith, it inspired me, and it is amazingly true.

 

i am in a state now when my heart feels really heavy. i have no idea why, but i think it has to do with somethings in my life God's bringing me to, to challenge and grow. It's also the course as well, i feel like recently, i have become a person with no voice, no opinions whatsover, because i have been so scared to have one, or to be sure of myself in many areas of my life. perhaps because of my men pleasing tendencies, my fear of men, my desire to please people, it used to be so natural to have a mask around my soul, but lately it gets heavier and heavier, i can't convince myself enough of this way of thinking and this way of life, like i used to. In my school, my workplace, my own house, i realised, i have been willing to sacrifice my own voice in many ways because i feared what men think. Ultimately, it's time now to let go. Perhaps we are all guilty of living with masks on, perhaps we often think others might not like to hear this or that, other people would want this and that, but how often are

we really accurate about such things? The setbacks of being too 'considerate' is that we might end up too patronising, fake, and hypocritical.

 

in some areas of my life, i am amazingly real, in others, i am such a two faced creature. my heart shields itself with a mask to protect itself from any form of rejection, criticism, confrontation. Now that i know, it all comes clean. And not at the state where i am full formed in the spirit, it's pure agony to be here- not here not there sometimes. have we forgotten that living for ourselves is important as well? that line to draw between laying down one's life and pure stupidity is fine. i find myself treading the insecurities of such conflicts all the time. How many times, have i thought i would be myself, express all that is within myself only to postpone it for another time when i feel brave enough. And therefore i am content to forfeit my freedom.

 

perhaps it's also the stress of this workload, postgraduate sucks. :( perhaps it's also many stones left unturned. All i know is that i need. a break. a true break where i can do nothing cept drive out into the wilderness and stare into His soul for a while.

 

 

Audite me, qui scitis justum,
populus meus, lex mea in corde eorum:
nolite timere opprobrium hominum,
et blasphemias eorum ne metuatis:
 sicut enim vestimentum, sic comedet eos vermis,
et sicut lanam, sic devorabit eos tinea:
salus autem mea in sempiternum erit,
et justitia mea in generationes generationum.
 Consurge, consurge, induere fortitudinem,
brachium Domini!
consurge sicut in diebus antiquis,
in generationibus sæculorum.
Numquid non tu percussisti superbum,
vulnerasti draconem?
 numquid non tu siccasti mare,
aquam abyssi vehementis;
qui posuisti profundum maris viam,
ut transirent liberati?